Undefined

Now, where do I go?
Which direction is right?
Is it left or right?
To go forward and not backward.
I am very perplexed.
Without a reason to live.
As if am dying unknown death.
I am undefined on the sea.

There's no one left for me.
Though siblings may,
Still, there is a hole unfilled
A dream unfulfillable. 
A task unaccomplished.
I have got but many siblings.
Yet! Only one mother.
How do I lose her?

So it's true, this old wise saying.
That it's not all that you want
That you may by all means get.
How I wish she lives to reap,
The good seeds she sowed and nurtured.
That is almost up for harvest.
Oh! Mama!! I am lost in the forest.
Staggering about at the shore.
Without destiny in the desert.
With fading hope to survive.
Just because, my world is undefined.

      (TO MY MOTHER)